Today, it finally happened. The project that I contemplated longer than any other reached a point of completeness that was ready for the world to see.
I'm a graphic designer and a marketer, so I know the thrill of clicking the publish button. When I click the publish button, it is the moment where my mind's current obsession is allowed to be released.
But before I can give myself the grace of accomplishment, I sort of torture myself with flash of paranoia. Right before I press the button, as the mouse hovers, a rush of nervous terror spreads through my body. The worries come. Will they like it? Is it good? Are there any embarrassing typos?
I pause. I breath. I tell myself everything will be alright.
I am relieved.
Today, when I hovered over that publish button, I had the typical bombardment of anxieties. And then I clicked. This time, the relief is replaced with an astounding bundle of emotions.
Disbelief: I can't believe it all finally came together. Making a portfolio website is something that I wanted to do for a very long time; pretty much since the inception of my career. The longer time passed, the more I excused myself from tackling this thing that was a beast in my mind. I accepted that I enjoy telling other people's stories, not my own. I became fearful of looking back.
Joy: I built this site. I reviewed, photographed and wrote about my past work, which turned out to be an entirely delightful task. This process brought back so many happy memories.
Gratitude: I've had the pleasure to work with brilliant leaders who challenged me in all the right ways. I am wholeheartedly grateful for this journey.
Thank you to all of my influencers and teachers!